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Monday, December 29, 2008,7:40 AM
just what is wrong with fucking guys nowadays. both of you think what, you can enter and leave my life just as you wish? you can treat me as a replacement the 2nd time then use sweet talkings on me again? fuck both of you man. just fuck out of my life and I WILL BE DAMN FINE. i just wan peace in my life. the appearance of both of you keeps reminding me of those stupid memories. i hate it..i really hate it. i've already went through the stage of sleepless nights for months..i dun wan to go through the same thing again. just fuck out of my life!... I, DECIDE WHO CAN ENTER AND LEAVE MY LIFE, NO ONE CAN AFFECT ME WITH ANYTHING!
Thursday, December 25, 2008,7:52 PM
Belated Merry Christmas to everyone..!!=D..today sick..haiz..staying at home..cannot go work =(..hee..anyway thanks Chari! for your present..=) i took some photos of it..hee..
Tuesday, December 23, 2008,9:12 PM
just what's wrong with the fucking bitch..she thinks she the queen of our house or what..i'm suppose to be soundly sleep now..having flu and sorethroat..i can't have the air con on..true..if she's the queen then her son is the prince la..then what am i..its my own room leh..i let them have my bed..i sleep on single bed on the floor i also nv say anything liao..now that i'm sick i just need a proper place to rest..i dun wan and i can't have air con..early in morning just walk into my room..ask also nv ask..off my fan..on my air con and instruct my mum to accompany triston to sleep...what's the fucking problem..i even hear her scolding my mum stupid..hey..bitch..u think my mum is like u? no need to prepare meals for family wan is it..ITS YOUR OWN SON, FEED HIM YOURSELF LA..you scold my mum stupid just cos she's not done preparing the meals and no time to feed your son..i tell you..u will regret one day..wait for me..one day..i'll make u pay TRIPLE for it. I HATE YOU BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
,5:23 AM
omg..so poor thing the yuzhu in the little nyona..haiz..the guy so touching..cos of a girl he loved..he was determined..he was not afraid..he didn't back off..how nice..it would be..for a girl to meet into a man she loves, and a man that wouldn't leave her forever..stay with her quietly..they dun need to have a amazing life but yet they are able to let their simple love bring them together for the rest of their life. me dreaming again..hee..only dream..this kind of thing won't come true wan de lo..at least not in my life..show only..=( ..
Monday, December 22, 2008,3:03 AM
Friday, December 19, 2008,6:33 AM
today went for my interview for pet groomer liao..the place is as far as bedok..really don't know should I accepted the job..its interest vs money..haiz..dun know what to do..if even if i accept le..there's so many candidates..they only pick up 2..haiz..haiz..haiz..dun know..so confusing..
Thursday, December 18, 2008,8:32 AM
muhahaha..today went shopping again!..haha..with serene and anna..i sound rich right almost shopping everyday..but hor..its all window shopping lo..ps..hee..haiz..now got time faster shop..next wed start work liao till schl starts..working at expo..12 hrs..sian..so far from my house la..plus travelling time, i must work 15 hrs per day for continuous 10 days..must work to earn more money. If one day parents strike lottery..a big one..then so good..=D..night dreaming only anyway..hee..
Wednesday, December 17, 2008,9:58 AM
today i wrote 2 times of blog is because..really can't sleep as per normal..i was quite suprised..amos just emailed me and told me how bad his life is now..somehow..i also dun know am i stupid or what..let him hurt before so badly then still wan to console him..but i just feel a sense of satisfaction when i see that i can help ppl in their lives..just treat him as normal friends..no jealousy or what..just feel that if he and hui ting can end up together happily then whatever things that i've gave up in the past is really worthwhile..whatever things what i did is really worthwhile too..even though i myself is alone, in terms of relationship i dun wan them to split also..i'm sure if both of them are determine and amos doesn't make any mistakes again they will be happily ever after.=D..hee..anyway my life is not alone or even better than them cos i got nice family and close friends to support me. =D love u alls, muackie!..
,5:17 AM
anna came my house today! with her doggy boy boy, haha..boy boy and candy had fun together=D At first, candy keep wanting to play with boy boy, then boy boy dun wan then so scared of candy cos she's bigger in size..haha..in the end, become boy boy want to befriend candy, but candy dun wan to befriend boy boy..But...in the end they became friends together..muhahaha..even fight for the food that anna bring.=D
At night, me and anna watch the tv show of "Nu Ren Da Zhu Yi", by Quan Yi Feng..they were talking about the different kind of bad men in this world..so funny, so true, & acts like a memory. They mentioned, like, men who like to lie, men who one leg step on 2 boats, men who like to spend women's money and men who are a flirt. OMG..all these points were in him lo..sian..but luckily I manage to be one of the "clever" women..even though its pain but I decided to back out & let her have him. I dun wan my life to be owning someone..I dun wan to own anyone anything or feel guily..I dun like to fight with people with the same thing..All thanks to all my sisters and friends that I manged to pull through..The show was right..even if you can pretend that nothing happen..you can forgive him but the memory is always there..the fear is always there..sometimes I ask myself..why..why must there be a repeat of 3 similar things that happen to me..strike lottery also not so accurate..-_-''..but now I prefer not to ask instead, because I think, I will be able to do much better without a relationship. I rather spend whole day shopping with my sisters instead of worrying everyday about will my bf betray me or will similar things happen again, how to make myself pretty so that I won't get dump again. I just wanna be myself, shu yun, a cheerful, blur, tom boy, normal & noisy girl. =) hee..
Tuesday, December 16, 2008,8:53 AM
haha..today went out whole day again to shop lo..with my sister & her friends=D..sis help me pay for all my meals..then bought a pair of shoes and earing..=)..quite happy..her friends...ah bee jie jie..also very funny..keep telling us jokes..haha..I enjoyed my day=)
Monday, December 15, 2008,7:47 AM
tiring day 2..
Early in the morning wake up today, saw YF's sms..he said there's an advertisement looking for full time pet groomer with no experience needed..so I contacted the person..friday will be going for my interview..erm..don't know how will it turn out..But yf says will accompany me go..erm..should be fine ba=) Even if have any pranks, my face is already the weapon liao..muhahaha..don't think that person will do anything to me..hee.. ;)
Today, my house also underwent a major event..changed a new sofa..whole make-up table was thrown out..living room's table also thrown out..bought a new single bed for me to sleep on the floor..one sentence..I still want to move out..
Anyway today I spend whole day with XL...went to woodlands to do our facial..in the end didn't manage to celebrate my colleage's bd, Chen Li..feel quite guilty.She asked me to buy that 4 leave's fruit cake for her, $30 plus..but in the end I bought her only 1 slice, cos I really got no more money to spend on her le..I know she won't pay back..But..haiz..I also don't know what to say..she seems to be a nice person and soft hearted..yet she seems to be starting to take things for granted. At first, cos I feel that she's very poor thing..come all the way from China to work..so when we go for lunch, I'll pay first..thinking that she'll pay me back..After some while, sometimes we go cold storage to get some sweets or other food, she also nv mentioned anything..so I pay first lo thinking she'll still pay me back..but fact is that she didn't. It's not that I want to be stingy and all, but fact is I am poor also..and she seems to be keep asking me to buy this and that..but I still don't want to judge her as that type of person. Hope she's not..
Sunday, December 14, 2008,8:33 AM
tiring day...
just came back from work..today is dad's bd=) family just bought some food to make steamboat, & got ice cream cake too. =D But was working, so didn't manage to take photo of the cake..hehe..I hadn't been sleeping well these few nights..or rather quite a few months liao..but this few days my nephew, Triston, seems like having a worser temper than before. Early morning always got awaken up by him cos he'll cry and cry and cry..haiz..Late in the night..I dare not sleep early cos I know he'll wake up in the middle of the night to drink milk..which leads to crying again and again..OMG..I don't think I'll give birth to kids in the future lo...at least not under unprepared circumstances..hee..but I dun even think I'll get married. =D..anyway..my dark eye circles & bags are getting worse=(...mum still ask me everytime why I don't sleep early..not I don't want..its I don't want to keep awaking up..sleep early wake up middle of night..sleep late..wake up early in morning..argh..haiz..nvm..I guess I can only tolerate with it..until I go out to work & is able to finacially support myself & I'll move out. =) Sometimes, I'm not even sure should I get angry at Triston or laugh at his cuteness..when he's crying & throwing temper like hell, I'll scold him & stare at him..then he stop a while..stare back at me..then suddenly give me that happy laughter..within like 3 seconds, he go back to crying again..headache..haiz..can only humour him when he cries..-_-''...let u all see my cute plus hot tempered nephew..for your information, his eyebag also very big lo..dun know why..hehe..=D
Saturday, December 13, 2008,2:00 AM
Happy day=D
Omg...first time darling (li ling) is also using her webcam to chat with me..haha..both of us are like those country women that nv see technology before..haha..-_-''..so funny la..then we took so many printscreens photos..hehe.. anyway I took some funny pics of darling and me..=D
By the way, today other than having funny stuff with darling, I had a nice outting with yu feng, my brother too..hee.. =) went K lunch with him then sing for quite a few hours..Miss amk so much..used to stay there in the past but then moved to sembawang. I still think the things there are much nicer lo..got nice market, good food, then cheap stuff, seems like a treasure place. =D perhaps a simplier lifestyle would be more suitable for me..haha..Anyway back to yu feng..haiz..so long nv had a feeling of being doted by a guy liao..haha..I just bought some food with hot soup & help was offered from him. I think he's just being too gentlemen..but it reminds me of the past.."he" used to help me carry all the stuff too just because he's afraid that it will be too heavy for me. But...NVM, I shall be a strong women..shall just remain like that..maybe it's the best way out for me..Even if I do have another new relationship he'll suffer...I won't trust guys easily after so many things have happened to me over the years..Maybe even the faith for love has all disappear in my life. Nonetheless, I'm still happy now, most important is to make lots of money, so that I can fulfil my wishing list. =D
And I love u all! My darlingssss friends..hehe..=D
Wednesday, December 10, 2008,11:00 AM
begining new chapter of my life=)
actually I was typing one whole chunk of things just now, then my internet got problem closed all my windows..so angry...argh..nvm..i shall retype it again..-_-''
I was saying I decided to set up this blog cos there's no more space for my brains to process the things that my heart wants to say. These few months..or rather..almost 1 year..went through all those ordeal that heaven wants me to go through, be it its family or relationship..purpose of it may be so that I can supposely changed to become a better person..really painful & hateful that's what I can use to describe this period. These obstacles made me leave my past character & becoming a whole new me, nearly a whole new bad me..haha..but I'm fine now. ;) But all thanks to all my friends, =) thanks for standing beside me, taking all the nonsense that I threw to them, encouraging me, & never leaving me alone when I've leave myself alone..Thanks to all of you. ;)
For all these while, I thought that heaven was being unfair, and that why must I met into such bad people in my life when I didn't do any bad things. But fact is that, bad things are always there to further train one person. It's only when one is going through obstacles that the person is able to grow up. Today, I've just learnt the news that my friend's close kin have passed away, but yet I didn't know it from him, it's from another person. I was shock cos from his tone of talking to me in msn, he's seems perfectly fine. At that moment I realise that, how cowardly am I, to run away from all my problems, to push the blame on others, when fact that I could have a choice of facing it and overcoming it. Moreover, the things that I'm facing is very minor compared to his, thank you friend, for making me realise that life is so unpredictable, so weak, it's so precious that time shouldn't be waste on unnecessary stuff. I've wasted 1 year..depressing on why did such things happen, but yet, it has never come across me that, I should have use that 1 year to think of how to solve it & stop thinking of it..
My new chapter in life ;) single rocks..hehe..I shall have all the time in the world to decide what I want & like to do. Treasuring the right people in my life, family & my bunch of "sisters". =) I think maybe if given a chance to help others will be a even more meaningful life, as for your own happiness becomes even sweeter when you learn how to pass your happiness to others & in turn doubles up the effect of happiness in you. =)
