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Wednesday, December 10, 2008,11:00 AM
begining new chapter of my life=)
actually I was typing one whole chunk of things just now, then my internet got problem closed all my windows..so angry...argh..nvm..i shall retype it again..-_-''
I was saying I decided to set up this blog cos there's no more space for my brains to process the things that my heart wants to say. These few months..or rather..almost 1 year..went through all those ordeal that heaven wants me to go through, be it its family or relationship..purpose of it may be so that I can supposely changed to become a better person..really painful & hateful that's what I can use to describe this period. These obstacles made me leave my past character & becoming a whole new me, nearly a whole new bad me..haha..but I'm fine now. ;) But all thanks to all my friends, =) thanks for standing beside me, taking all the nonsense that I threw to them, encouraging me, & never leaving me alone when I've leave myself alone..Thanks to all of you. ;)
For all these while, I thought that heaven was being unfair, and that why must I met into such bad people in my life when I didn't do any bad things. But fact is that, bad things are always there to further train one person. It's only when one is going through obstacles that the person is able to grow up. Today, I've just learnt the news that my friend's close kin have passed away, but yet I didn't know it from him, it's from another person. I was shock cos from his tone of talking to me in msn, he's seems perfectly fine. At that moment I realise that, how cowardly am I, to run away from all my problems, to push the blame on others, when fact that I could have a choice of facing it and overcoming it. Moreover, the things that I'm facing is very minor compared to his, thank you friend, for making me realise that life is so unpredictable, so weak, it's so precious that time shouldn't be waste on unnecessary stuff. I've wasted 1 year..depressing on why did such things happen, but yet, it has never come across me that, I should have use that 1 year to think of how to solve it & stop thinking of it..
My new chapter in life ;) single rocks..hehe..I shall have all the time in the world to decide what I want & like to do. Treasuring the right people in my life, family & my bunch of "sisters". =) I think maybe if given a chance to help others will be a even more meaningful life, as for your own happiness becomes even sweeter when you learn how to pass your happiness to others & in turn doubles up the effect of happiness in you. =)
