haiz..today is sunday leh..suppose to be my only day of rest day throughout the week...shit..room occupy by that idiot..cannot sleep..=( ...so tired..a bit fed up with both of them also..cannot sleep already nvm liao, sit in living room keep telling me to carry him..stupid..u got no hands to carry ah..say u not free..shit, think i stupid...u inside room playing your stupid computer games lo. dun know whose son is this..argh..grumpy grumpy grumpy without enough sleep..-_-''..........i wan to have a good rest with both of them plus their son out of this house, that is call real peace!..


yeah...wei jie say that there will be a new data entry team whom will work at night..hee..so i might..might only..not send to raffles head quarter..hee..that means i can save money on my food..and i can eat together with my kaki friends..hehe..although now is 2nd week..not many friends la..but ok la..start to know one by one better lo..hehe..=) although now everyday have to meet target of keying how many pieces, but at least everyday after work i'm happy. cos i acomplished something today. =)..i will still hold on tight to my goal, which is to earn and save lots of money..

same thing..come back home hear her nag..keep picking on little things lo..then say dad also..haiz..used to it..nvm, i good mood pretend i hear nth..then of cos..dad complain to me lo..in the end i still have to absorb everything and swallow it lo..hope these days of them present in house will end. i hope to faster move out..

anyway yesterday walk back from office that time saw rainbow..so beautiful..=) took some pics but angry..hp unable to transfer to laptop leh..dun kow what is wrong with this stupid lg phone lo..haiz..a bit regret that i didn't buy the sony wan..

i hope tmr will be a happy day too, not a disappointed day.


wa..tired tired tired..thats all i can say..i'm sleeping earlier and earlier lo..10.30pm bong! on the bed..sleep until next morning..hee..

haiz..friday going to get transfer to raffles head quarter to work lo..so sian=( ask me be what leader somemore, shit, this is only my 2nd week here. =( ...hope i can learn new things and experience. dun know my lunch now..no kaki to eat lunch with me liao..=(..nvm..i'll try to be a bit more sociable..hee..i think thats the only thing i mind ba..cos no friends there..i dun mind more work laod..which definitely cannot be avoid, but at least hope got friends..

today saw rainbow when going back home..=D this is the 3rd time in my life i see a rainbow=) hope, things in my life will be like the rainbow..hope all the bad things will go away & good things come one after another..=)


wohoo..its a sunday, raining, so comfortable to be staying at home to slack=) but not really slacking..hee..did some housework..feel quite a sense of satisfaction. results for this sem will be out tmr, i know mostly the ending won't be good and that i have the face the consequences. hope after all that i've gone through, i'm able to cope with the obstacles given to me in future.

sometimes when watching tv really feel like a "hua chi", hopring that there's a prince appearing in my life to go through all these with me, but i think i think too much..haha.. i believe i can do perfectly well, or even better without the support of a "prince". i think its time to test out my own capability, cos it's only when you're facing all the things alone, that you realise how much are you able to endure and how much are you able to cope with it. erm, who doesn't wants someone to be beside her and she knows that there's a pillar to strength for her when something happen. but when there's no pillar for you, then all i can say is that, too bad lo..haha..must depend on yourself. =)..

boy, i wan u to know that, you can think whatever you wan to think. u can say that i'm hard hearted or what, but to me, what i did is right, i dun know does it benefits you, but it will definitely benefits me. i am selfish, and i know i have my own limits. why is it when i'm facing with all those problems, and worse of all, you are one of them who adds more onto my problem, and that you're not there for me at all. now that you're facing with these problems, although not as serious as mine, i can already feel that you wan someone to be by your side. now you can slightly understand how i was feeling back then ba. and i'm sorry to tell you, i'm not the past shuyun anymore. i've learnt how to protect myself. it's not that i dun wan to help ppl, but i will only help those that deserves my help. those that dun deserve anything from me, i won't even give a single cent. remember, everything in this world is worth your appreciation, they should not be taken for granted. even if there's a roof over your head, you're able to have food, all these are already consider a blessing to us if you know how to appreciate it. same thing, you wan me back, you wan my respect, then you earn it yourself. i won't give anyone my respect without the person earning it from me. but i guess, you'll have the same attitude, then so be it, i dun care, can't even be bothered. what i bother now is those ppl who deserves to be care by me and my own life. thats all, and bye.


finally today is friday le!!!muhahaha!! i'm like more than half dead. if my life battery is 8/8, i think i'm only left with 3/8..-_-''..today "she" "catch" me to go screen assemment of the job seekers. wa..its like wth..i'm like damn scared lo. with no experience, no knowledge and information, i'm suddenly asked to screen the job seekers to see are they job ready or not. but, the luckily thing is that today i didn't meet into any fierce or difficults one, only naggy ones..hee..but i dun mind.=) then sit beside her, so stress lo..my head leh..i dun even dare to msn..-_-''..

so happy after work..hee..happily came home. then come home only bitch nag. F*** u la..stop pretending u got depression or what lo, u dun have any. u just wan the whole family to act according to what u want and says. oh pls, do u think u're queen or something? i really hate u to the core, and there's nth that can erased off this hatred unless you die. then mum tell me, that she went to pray in temple yesterday and tell me dun go swimming. but she say so softly, i ask her why, she say scared later bitch dun like. WTF lo..now who is the mother in law here. i really cannot stand all of them including my parents. why must they get bullied by them? and most angry thing is they are so willing to get bullied by their own son. i really dun understand. what i wan now is just to make a lot of money and gain power. once i have the power i will be back to deal with u 2. better be careful, whatever u all do to my parents and me, i will remember it deep inside and return back u all 10 times in future. Nv in my life, i hated someone, or someone for so long, at most is like 1 month? I really dun wan it to be like this but u leave me with no choice. I will always remember how u all force me to end up with depression. I won't get it again because for now, i've decided, i must be strong, and i will be. i will return it to u all one day.


today is my 3rd day at work lo..erm..other than tired i really dun know what to say. today all the data entry work pile up high high like moutain like that..haha..cos xing wei is going to take leave till next week, so i purposely go take all the papers from him, so that i dun have to go in to screen those scary uncles. erm, its not that i dun pity them that they lose their jobs but it's just that, i really cannot afford to let ppl scream at me de, if not i'll automatically cry out..haha..automatic system in body. sis say good to learn from the screening centre, then next time become very thick face, ppl scold also not scared..-_-''..

anyway today i was a bit short tempered lo, cos the system for me to key in damn slow, change one option have to wait for it to load 1 time..can imagine how many things i have to type in..haiz..in got throw temper at yee auntie lo..so sorry..not purposely de. when i short temper better dun come near me for a while if not most likely the person will get from me de..haiz..i hope i can learn a lot of things over here ba=)..

today went back home at 6.45pm, was the 2nd last to leave. although i know a temp no need so hard working la, but i just wanna to get all those things done before i leave lo, at least i feel a sense of satisfaction.=) when walking back home today, although i'm alone but dun know why, i just feel happy and relax=) maybe cos, deep inside my heart, i know that, i am living for myself, i can depend on myself and not anyone else. i am not that weak shuyun when i use to have bf..haha..although now not very strong la, still scared scolding..:p..

erm, yee auntie say jie got her instructor job le, happy for her la, can do the things she like. =) but yee auntie say want to stop the touch ubi project..i admit everyday after work i'm like half dead, but i dun really wan to stop the project lo. since we start something le shouldn't we be responsible to continue it? if it fails i have nth to say, at least we tried, but i dun like it when we haven't even try then want to back off. really dun like it, i dun understand, 4 of us been good friends for these past 3 years, why are we like sand? i believe if everyone of us put heart and patience in, we'll be able to get the project done very fast and achieve good ending de..somemore we're able to help those touch ubi ppl also ma. isn't that our main aim at first? why are we letting go now just of some excuses? i say its excuse cos, its not that we've no time to do, its whether we want to fork out time to do or not..haiz, dun know la..


today is my first day at work..so nervous until i keep going toilet then got diarrhea..-_-''..and it is so tired..stuck with the system for quite some time. luckily yee auntie is there also..haha..can talk..at least more relax not so nervous=) she also keep going toilet lo..but she's not nervous, its cos she got bladder problems lo..-_-''...but cannot blame her, the air con in the office is like so cold. dun say her, i also feel cold lo..=)..then yee auntie so lame, keep saying that xing wei..i only ask him a few questions then she link me up with him..anyway she bet with me, if i'm together with him in future, i'll buy her meals every now and then. if i dun then too bad it's the other way round..haha..anyway its impossible..hee..erm..office people all quite ok la..except got one supervisor..erm..a bit strict..i think must be extra careful..no play play.. :p..but i see yee auntie's face i sure laugh..-_-''

anyway, sorry boy, i have to do that. i really can't bring myself to forget. your presence is like a reminder that i've a scar in my heart. u take care ba.


so long nv blog liao,haha..everyday my sis use my laptop so didn't have a chance to blog..tmr start work at sis's office lo. a bit nervous,first time working in office..hee..heard sis say that must beware of some ppl..haha..i will open my eyes and ears big big & protect yee auntie also.=D..haiz..now start work then like no time, i hope we're able to finish the thrift mart project. really hope we're able to help those ppl there. =) since we promised to help le, i dun wan to give up so easily again lo if not in future are we going to give up everything when we meet with some obstacles? nope..of cos not..

wells..yesterday was valentine's day, spend my whole day working as shoes promoter. and today is my last day at work as a shoes promoter. anyway i very sad and angry today, today was damn busy, i start work at 1 till like 6.30pm was totally running in and out of storeroom to get the stupid shoes. then when i thought i can have a good rest, there's no more food selling at the staff canteen..:''( sob sob..so angry..=(..in the end only eat fruits. after working hrs, stayed back a while to help the auntie to pack up stuff, in the end i lost my ez-link card lo..more sad..also break my nail today. so many bad things happen today.=( ..hope tmr start work will be a happy day=D..


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so tired..just wanted to say, i had a happy day, erm..maybe not really those kind of like happily laughing happy, but its rather a peaceful, back to the past happy day. thanks by the way for making half of my day bright. i can't say much, not that i dun know what to say, but its i've to much to say. too much that i can't phrase it out in words. anyway whatever both of us say now is useless, its too late..i only know that it's painful, yet it's not so painful cos this time round i had sealed myself up first just in case this kind of thing happen again. but, thanks, cos i think before that it wasn't sealed up so tightly but now, all the small holes and leakage are being sealed up by me. at least, i know that from now, i won't get hurt again.

just wanna to be back a simple me..blur..happy and sleepy everyday yet i won't have to be worrying all day about unnecessary problems. i just wan to treasure everything that i have now, be it its my family, my friends, i just wan to be simple. i wan to spend time on things that will improve my life's perspective and help people if i can. being single, doesn't mean that there's no one for me when i need someone, and it doesn't mean that i'm going to be weaker than those people who are attached. i wan to, remember all the attitudes that i use to overcome the obstacles i had in relationships to apply in my life. cos i believe in, never giving up, at least, never give up till the last decisive moment. shuyun, will not be the same shuyun as the past, but my aim will be moving on in life with new good life values and getting rid of those bad values or thinking that i had in the past. i know that it's going to be a bumpy road, but that doesn't mean i won't be able to cross through it, i will definitely fight my way out..


why the male leads in romance shows are always so nice..so caring, so brave. just wanted someone who is simple who is willing to go through simple obstacles in life to be with me so as to prove me that, he is willing to be with me not for the sake of fun but for the sake of he is really serious. dun need someone who's handsome, dun need someone who's rich, but only need someone who has 100% heart and sincerity. it's so simple yet it's the most difficult part for guys to achieve it. a lot of things, it's not that you cannot do it, it's you dun wanna to do it..excuses excuses excuses..had enough of it. why should i let you come into my life if you can't even prove simple things to me? if you can't prove it then just leave me alone, you are not the person in my life. i dun wanna another man to come into my family and life whereby my mum will have a hard time again trying to endure all the nonsense.

i wan a man who is able to bring me simple happiness. do you even know what is simple happiness? it's when a guy tells you and does in action at the same time that, he only wants you, and that no one will be able to step into the relationship. it's when you all meet with obstacles, he will not run away but hold tight your hand and tells you that both of you will be able to go through it together as a couple. it's when a guy know what's your favourite food and buy it for you when he has the money to do so. it's when a guy saw your sweater has a hole, he buys a new one for you secretly, and even it's those kind of cheap sweater like $10, i'm happy enough. it's when a guy really spends time listening to you about what you have to say and what problems you faced and console you. it's when a guy, knows that you had to spend time and money purposely to go to his favourite place to buy food for you, he tells you, he's fortunate to have you, and that's a way of thanking you. it's when a guy cares about what you feel and not only how he is feeling. are these things so difficult to do so?if yes, then i'm sorry, you can give me 10 million or whatever hack to say it's your evidence to prove that you love me, but sadly to say, this is not love.

love, comes from pure heart, without any other stupid thinking. love comes from sincerity, which cannot be prove by money alone, but this doesn't mean you can be stingy or whatever hack. love is not for you to take advantage of when you know that your partner is softer at heart. and true love, will not be affected by distance and time. true love is pure. it's only when you truly love one person only then you're able to do the right things. that is also why, until now i can tell you that, u don't love me, understand?..if you really do love me, then prove it, if you don't then pls leave.

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