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Monday, January 18, 2010,5:05 AM
my life sucks..at least for today....dun understand why do i have such a brother and sis in law...giving birth to baby and throwing to us to take care...forget it...shouting at my dad and mum..forget it...throwing away my dad's stuff to street make him pick it up in the rain..forget it...throwing me out of the house forget it...at least these 2 years..i thought that i have gotten used and will tolerate...tolerate until Tristan has grown up and all these will end...
now..he and his wife..dun know whose main idea..anyway no difference..wants to sell away the house...i hope sis can stop them...if he really sells away the house and buy his condo and move it with his family..where are we going to stay...last time..i thought about moving out alone..now..how am i going to move my parents if we gets chase out...dun understand..very disappointed with human race...suddenly felt that no one can be trusted in this world..down payment was paid by my dad and mum's money..how can they take it away to buy a condo saying that if they still have money left, only then they'll return to my mum...
is heaven really watching above???if he is, then why are things still like that??so that can make my wish come true? by slimming down? i guess if one day we really have no road to walk, i might have to work on sat and sun ba..to earn more money...then i think i really will slim down to the max..will save every penny that i have just to make sure my family is supported...a totally different shuyun from now..
at least if sis stops them now..till i reach 21, i'll pay for the house together with her..but if i were to get married in future..i would want to say sorry to my future husband..because if we buy our own house in future, i won't have the first time buyer's grant..which is around $15000 like what sis says...to me..family is very important now...money..i can earn and save together with my future husband if he wants to...haha..that is at least i'll find a bf and get married...think no one will want me..a problematic girl...problems at work..problems in family..problematic character..so quiet and anti-social..
today at work..i practically day dream..i really couldn't concentrate on my work..i was thinking of all kinds of way to buy a flat...haha..i even thought of marrying a rich guy...stupid day dream..think no rich man will fall in love with me ba..even he is..he must be selfish kind..argh..whatever....stupid thinking running inside my head now..i miss you..miss the hug and the jia you that you'll give me..just a simple sentence it can give me strength to carry on...but i guess you've forgotten about me..
10 more months to become 21...like what i've always thought of..21 is the year whereby all the responsibilities will start to come in..but i didn't thought of it'll come so fast...but it's quite cool actually..21 years old, my name is in half of the flat...have to do this..if not sis can't cope...the expenses are too high...just hope heaven really can see and then i'll strike lottery or something that can buy a flat for us to stay. =) just a shelter over our heads i'm happy enough...
