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Saturday, February 25, 2012,9:56 PM
26 Feb 12, 1.56pm.
Today I finally said out what I have been wanting to know, how much do I really mean to you? You were correct about I'm not materialistic, doesn't care about branded stuff or are you even rich at all or not. But you didn't realise how simple I am. Ppl around me have been asking about our stuff and tells me to set my expectations higher. But, I believe that, in a relationship, it's very important for both of us to communicate, and not only about expectations. Communication is not just about saying what you want to say, but also about listening. I don't need too much, I only need someone's who is able to communicate with me. A person with little words, only hopes that when he/she speaks, ppl is listening to her attentively.
When I asked you, how much do I actually mean in your heart, you wasn't able to answer me, I guess I know what's the answer already. I hope that we'll have a better path ahead and won't let go unless it's necessary, because I still remember telling you that we'll go through the obstacles together hand in hand.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012,6:27 AM
22 Feb 12, 10.30pm.
It has been quite some time since I came in to write about what I feel and went through today.=)
Work has been quite the same and I've already gotten used of the pace and stress that I had to face in pharmacy. I felt a sense of relieved that I didn't give up on what I want when I looked back at what happened 1 year ago. When I just entered the industry, I thought that I won't be able to pass the probation..:p but now, I think that at least my life in pharmacy has been quite smooth sailing. I understand that there will be more challenges ahead but I'm willing to go through it.
Today, Lina was asking me, should we go retake our O Level English, I feel quite motivated, especially if we want to take up science degree in future. =) I hope that Jie's tuition teacher will not be charging as expensive as the british council, then at least I can save a sum of money up. =)
Other than studies plan, today I felt quite angry with PL, at normal times I don't mind her pushing us around when we are working, but she caused my pharmacist to misunderstand me. It was just a simple matter and I did my job by informing her, then in the end I get the blame..-_-''
I wanted to tell you, but as always, I know that you were busy with your work, studies and other stuff so I didn't in the end. I don't know am I really understanding or not but sometimes when I said that it's ok, it's actually not ok at all. I just don''t want to quarrel or add to your worries. A phone call per week is not enough to sustain the whole relationship, but I don't know what else can I do. Maybe to change my perspective and expectations will help to make myself happier.
Hope that tomorrow is a happier day with a fresh start. =)
