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Sunday, April 22, 2012,8:51 AM
22 Apr 12, 11.30pm
It's late at night, but still can't sleep. It may be due to I'm excited about my Korea trip in 3 days time and it can also be my English exam preparations.
I spent a few hours walking in and out of sister room to obtain the things which I'll be needing in Korea, thinking of what clothes to wear and ironing my clothes. It's the first long distance trip in my life and I'll be going with your family and you. I hope it'll be a good trip although it's not just the two of us. :p What's matters most is everyone's safety and have fun during this trip I guess. Recently, I have been feeling better, maybe it's because I said out my feelings that night. I know it's not going to be easy for both of us but at least I know that at this moment, I'll still be putting in efforts. Really hope that we can have a nice trip for ourselves, maybe with a few friends and not big gatherings again, maybe next year or so.
English O level is another concern for me currently, Ms. Laura have been a very nice teacher. I hope that I won't disappoint her and get good results. After I've received my result, I don't know what should I study. School fees will be a major problem, only way that I can pay is from bank loan, but if it's that case, will I still be able to contribute to my family allowance. It's only left sis and me who are working in this family, if I don't contribute, her allowance won't be enough to support whole family. Even if I borrow bank loan, what if I fail my degree course? I need courage to push myself forward because I know a Diploma cert won't bring me to any higher position. But if I get a degree relating to my course, I can't become a pharmacist either, it's so confusing. Maybe that's life, we have to analyze, take the step and bear the consequences of our decision ourselves.
Well, too much to think in the night, should sleep early, have to work till 8pm tomorrow.
Saturday, April 14, 2012,8:34 AM
14 Apr 12, 11.34pm.
Finally, I had a good talk with you last week and sorted out my thinkings recently. =) At least now I know that I can't hint things to you, instead I've to tell you directly..-_-'' But I got your point of, you really do not have time for me. I hope that both of us compromise each other, when you're having exams or projects, I won't bother you, but when you're having your holidays, I hope you still remember me.
I had my first English tuition lesson today and it was good. Lesson went well, teacher was very nice and most importantly I understood what she was teaching. =) This is just the starting of my study journey after graduating from poly a few years ago. I hope that by next year, after my O level result is out, I'll know what degree course to go for. Today after my lesson, I came home and studied my notes, keep looking for meaning of words in dictionary.com. It will be helpful and useful for me if I improve on my vocabulary and learn maybe 20 to 30 new words per day. =)
Saturday, April 7, 2012,9:08 PM
8th Apr 12, 12.08pm
I've so much things that I want to talk to you but have no chance. Even if I do say it out when you can find the time for me, you won't listen either. Even if you listen, you can't or won't do anything about it either. Just want to be quiet and don't say anything currently, as if that there's no problems between us. Just want to treat myself as a sponge and maybe I can just absorb in all the unhappiness and problems.
Experience doesn't help much here, I can't feel it, I can't feel your love or effort that you've put in. I'm like a stone, with no feelings, starting to slowly build up my defense wall because I don't want to get hurt and cry anymore, I'm tired. Why can't you just understand that family or friends gathering is not dating? Maybe they are really much more important.
The places I want to go with you...tons of them, want to record it down so that maybe, just maybe we might have a chance to go together one fine day. I know in your mind, there's no place that you can think of that you want to go with me, but it's fine.
Places/restaurants list
1. Botanic garden
2. Sushi express
3. Just Acia
4. Clunny park
5. Charlie Brown cafe
6. to be continue....
