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Sunday, June 10, 2012,5:40 AM
10 Jun 12, 8.33pm
A sudden gush of disappointment and unsettlement ran through my heart to my mouth that I think I said something inappropriate again. I admit that I've been trying my best to be your 100% gf in your heart so that one day you can treat me the same way too. But this doesn't seems to be the way. Tired.
I do not wish to go back to the same old me, when I feel that there's not enough time well spend with one another, I'll start to flare up. It's a very bad habit and it really affects my mood. I want back my smile where I do not have to think or worry anything about my bf, whether can we communicate, whether can we meet each other at least once a week, whether...I don't know.
I just want to be me, smiling and bringing smiles to people. Just wanna to be independant. If having someone besides me let me think that I can reply on them but I can't, then I would rather not have anyone beside me so that I can go back to my protective shell and become like an "ice" again.
What's exactly wrong with me? Maybe the 2 consecutive days when I received those riddiculous complain from the aunties really affects my mood. I should stop flaring up and think.
Ps: Hope to find back my patience and smile.
