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Thursday, October 9, 2014,4:17 AM
Ending marks the journey of a new start
Today is 09 Oct 2014,it's going to be the end of year 2014 soon. I'm still working at the same place with old and new colleagues. As I stepped in to pharmacy daily for work,although I may feel tired as we may be facing challenging issues but I feel blessed to have the family warmth too. I've been working here for 4 years, considered as one of the seniors. People resign and new staff entered, sometimes I'm also wondering will I ever leave this centre one day. Currently, passing on the knowledge which I've learn to the next generation is my priority, although I'm quite fierce but I do care about my juniors. I just hope that one day they become mature and understand the importance of responsibility too.
My supervisors have always emphasize that this is a good place to work especially if you have family, I agree too. By the year of 2017, our flat is coming, it gives me a mixture of emotions. The first factor definitely is happiness, happy to know that I'm able to set up a family with him soon. However I do feel nervous and scared too. Nervous due to I don't know when will we get married, we can discuss openly about the house renovations and what kind of banquet but I'll never touch on the proposal issue. You can ask me all kinds of questions but for certain things, I think I shouldn't be the one who make the first step, otherwise I'll think that our roles has been reversed. However I'm not hoping for much as he's always busy,perhaps too busy to have a actual proposal. Additionally I'm scared because I realise as time passes by, he may not be as "automated" or responsive at times. At times I don't know whether my expectations became higher as years passed by but I really appreciate the small gestures which he does in the past. Loving a person is not easy, to maintain a relationship is even harder, really takes lots of effort. I hope I'll have the energy to build a family hand in hand with him and not me alone mentally and physically. After seeing so many cases, really a lot of cases from my relatives, friends, his relatives, there's a small side of me which doesn't want to commit to marriage. All women are afraid of marrying someone who can't give you happiness or the "wrong" man. I hope ours will be different. Other than wishing him to give me happiness, I wish I can provide him warmth, sense of belonging and happiness too. I like the moments when he waited for me to end work and us going home together, delivering of lunch, hugging and kissing me suddenly when I don't take notice of it, enduring my bad temper and treating me like a princess at times, offering his help without me saying anything just like he knows what am I thinking. PS: I am still loving him and hope this goes on forever.
